This made my night...

Cali used to be fun...

I think I forgot how to be human. Maybe I'm crazy...

Isn't there anything fun to do in Cali?

When I'm all alone

I want to disappear. I don't go anywhere. I don't do anything. I feel like I'm just burdening everyone. I can't even have an emotional break down without feeling guilty. I get so angry. I just grind my teeth. If I just shut up, it won't bother anyone.
I can't fucking blame you because you'll just blame me. It's not my fault that it's all your fucking fault. Now I'm alone with all of what you've done. With all of what you've taken from me. With all of what you've left me.

I'm so lucky to have a life that is dictated by how shitty I do or don't feel that day.


And no matter what that day is like, it ends exactly the same way it did yesterday.

And I'm all alone.

So thats how I'm feeling. Maybe now I can concentrate on cleaning.

Monster...

Do you ever see the person you are becoming and wonder how you let it go so far?

Sometimes I take a step back and I can see myself for what I really am...

You are totally gonna read this..

I have tons of shit to talk about. I just have to get my brain to cooperate with me here so I can bring some thoughts to fruition.

wait, who is reading this?

*cricket*